First I wanna thank those for the condolences, my friends wake will be Wednesday and thursday, he also was a marine of the U.S. Secondly, I know a lot of my friends and family may think I do not care about them because I been keeping my distance. I care for them very much, it is just lately I have built up a wall around me. I have been there to the fullest for all my friends and family in their time of need, but right now, I have nothing to offer; I’ll just be useless for advice at the moment. I have so much going on and I need to focus on myself at the moment. If you’re close to me and in my life, I love you to the fullest and have your back one hundred, but I also need my time and space. I can only hope they would understand and respect that. I mean I just lost 2 good friends in a matter of a month period, A childhood friend who was killed in a car crash due to a drunk driver, a good guy friend who was riding his bike home; struck by a drunk driver. Then I also lost my soul comfort and confidant, my grandmother, due to cancer 8 months ago. I am fighting daily to help my son with Autism use words, and learn. Not only my life is rough, but imagine what my 3 year old feels. I just don’t feel cheery or sociable at the moment so I keep away.
My heart is heavy, I lost another real good friend yesterday, due to a careless drunk driver. He was riding his bike home from work, and the asshole slammed into him. Death is coming too close to home.